Miller's Profile

"I'd rather be feared than love"

My Story

I believe in Free Will.

I was born small - two months premature, and around 2 lbs.

I had a normal childhood. I was skinny and on the smaller size, but still within the average for my age.

When I was 8 I started using prednisone for my age. I used it on and off until I was 13 or 14.

I was late going through puberty.

During Junior High I played basketball. I was skilled but too fat to be slow. I got teased a lot by other boys and even by coaches. One coach nicknamed me "pudge".

In 9th Grade I joined Junior Football. Our team was great and our training was intense. I lost weight and had significant full body weight abilities: pushups, rob climbing, sit-ups.

Through High School I lost the weight form Junior High simply because I grew. I was also very active, expecially in the Summers: Wakeboarding, Sailing, Swimming daily.

Towards the end of High School and into University I started drinking a lot. I started exercising less and using drugs.

When I was 23 I had ballooned to 170. A lost, unrequieted love of my youth came to visit me. She scolded me and questioned how I could live like I was living. She gave me postivie reinforcement and unconditional love. She inspired me. I joined the gym.

After joining the gym I did lots of reps and sets and made it fun. I did a lot of push ups, situps, and pullups/chinups, and jogged on the treadmill as best as I could given my asthma. When I left for law school I was 158 and fit. I had muscular endurance.

I was on Oz's GC x 3 years. 300 days of sun I jogged to the gym outdoors& surfed. I went to the gym 4-5 days per week and maintained my regime. I was lean and fit and mentally happy.

I returned from Oz reluctantly. I became depressed. I had to start a life over. I went through gruelling exams & stress of two murder trials & being very underemployed. In 15 months I ballooned to 182. I met a sexy, skinny, girl & fell in love. I want her to be as attracted to me as I am to

My Goals For This Year:

I want to lose body fat.

I want to become more toned.

I want to be more "waif-like"

I want to look sexy to my girlfriend.

I want my girfriend, my future fiancee, to be excited to me and physically attracted.

I want to fit into my custom cut suits made in Shanghai.

Favorite Books & Music

Spun, Fight Club, Requiem For a Dream, Momento, Kids

Mystery Method, The Game, My Friend Leonard, The Sun Also Rises, A Million Little Pieces, Fab Five, Zero Below, The Rules of Attraction, Lunar Park

Youtube

Techno, Minimal, IDM, House, Hip Hop, Turntablism, Mash-ups